Vacation

Heading to Florida later this week for a much needed and deserved vacation. It has been over four years since I have had a REAL vacation. Why is it that we work so hard and many of us never take time for ourselves? My New Year's Resolution for 2005 was to start taking a vacation at least once a year. Lord knows we are not getting any younger. A good vacation, I believe, is essential to ones health.

What am I going to do? Not a damn thing. Nothing. Nadda. Zilch. I am going to bask in the sun, read some good novels, and swim in the pool. Of course all while sipping on some good margarita's. This is going to be a soul cleansing vacation. I am going to ride in the convertable with the top down, throw my hands in the air, and celebrate being me.

Wanna come? :)

HUGS

Baby Annya

My friend Lisa gave birth last night to a little baby girl. Annya Simone. David and I are going to see her this afternoon. I am so excited.

This is Lisa's second child. Jasten, who is 15, now has a baby sister. I can only imagine how adorable this little 7 pound bundle of joy is.

The father.... Ran away.... So typical.... Together for a long time... Then when he finds out she is pregnant he vanishes... Shit pisses me off. Does not even know what the word responsibility means.

Lisa is a hope for this child. Unable to even consider giving her up, she is becoming the beacon of light who will show this sweet innocent child the ways of the world. The most un-selfish act.

--Peace

Meredith and Gretchen

I love the Amazing Race. Sadly our boys are gone, but I was a wreck when Meredith and Gretchen found out they were still in the race. Grace, beauty, prowess, they have it all. They are the essence of love. You can feel it through the screen. David and I stood up and cheered for them. They are adorable. Love them!

_Out

Dentist--Savannah

I had a dentist appointment this morning. 8 am. I am so not a morning person. NYU Dental. Real nice place. They have top of line equipment. I arrived just in time for my appointment. I did not have any coffee yet, and I was suffering from only a few hours of sleep the night before.

There was a cute girl with her mother in the waiting room with me. Her name was Savannah. She was there for her 6 month check up. Same for me. She showed me her new shoes that she just got. Bright patton leather. She was so excited. She asked me if the dentist would give her a lollipop if her teeth were good. I laughed and told her I did not think so. Somehow candy and the dentist do not go hand in hand.

She then told me she was going to see Beauty and the Beast on Broadway tomorrow night. Kids. They crack me up. They just volunteer information to you and don't care if you want to know or not. It's her first Broadway show. She is so excited. She told me all about the Disney movie. I told her that she was going to love the show. Her mother saw my musical book. I was going through new material that my musical director had sent me. She asked me if I knew any songs from the show. We started to sing Belle, the opening number. Strange I remembered all the words. Savannah of course knew them all. She told me she has watched the move 45 million times. LOL

I got to thinking about my first time seeing a Broadway show. I'll never forget it. She asked me if I had seen the show. I told her three times. She then of course wanted to know everything about it. I told he about the amazing transformation that the Beast goes through. How he is lifted off the stage and starts to fly around. She said people can't fly. I laughed. I told her that the theater is a magical place, and that people can fly in the theater. Her eyes widened, showing more white, and she kept asking more and more about the show. Kids! The innocence. It's beautiful.

I know that I will probably never have any children, and I am okay with that. I love other peoples kids though. Here I was not looking forward to the dentist, and Savannah made it a great morning. I did not even get a caffeine headache from no coffee.

I will think of Savannah tomorrow night at 8pm. The lights dimming, the orchestra tuning, the anticipation of the curtain rising. I know she is going to love it.

--PEACE

Reality?

I got home from work last night. A long day indeed. I sat down on the couch with a glass of pinot grigio, kicked off my shoes, and turned on my TV to catch up on some shows that I have missed this week. Tivo. He's been one of my best friends for the past four years. The Amazing Race. God I want Meredith and Gretchen to win so bad. They truly amaze me. I think CBS should give them a million anyway. Hell, not a loss for them at all. Lynn and Alex. Lord help my sister's out. Just let them get in front of Mr. Red Sox.

Then I watch The Bachelor. Lord knows why. I just like the twists this season. It amazes me how these girls fling themselves on a guy they hardly even know. None of them ever stay together. Trista and Ryan were different though. They were the only couple that you could feel through the screen. The rest, BLAH!

Then onto The Apprentice. I don't think the Donald's show is doing to well this season. The show has lost it's pazzaz (spelling). I do love how the street smart team is kicking ass though. Find it rather amusing.

Yes I admit it. I am a reality TV whore. But how much of it is reality? What is reality? Why are we here? What is our purpose? Why do we meet the people who come into our lives? I try and take something away from everyone I meet. I think every person that we meet can teach us something about ourselves that we can then learn from and possibly pass on to others. Life is a crazy journey. I must admit though over the past year, I finally feel as though I am starting to get it. Coming into my own skin. No more secrets. No more lies. Just being 100% me. No one chooses life. But we can choose how to live it.

--OUT

Audition

Today I attended yet another audition. A room full of Broadway baby's anxiously going through their books trying to decide what 16 bars to sing? Uptempo? Ballad? Sondheim? Schwartz? Decisions. Decisions. So much in talent in one room. It motivates me, excites me, intimidates me, drives me... I decide on If I Loved You from Carousel. The auditors sit and look at me in amazement. You'd be cast, but you're too tall. F******! What am I supposed to do? Cut off my legs? It's okay I tell myself. Christ I would play a tree. Just get me on that stage. It's where I belong. It's where I need to be. A place where I can be someone else for two hours. The theater is an amazing place. Live, uninhibited magic. It all takes place in the theater. There is nothing like it. Tomorrow is another day, another audition.

--Peace